Testimony
I am honestly tentative to post this but I am a huge fan of authenticity so here is the summarized but not censored version of my testimony:
I grew up in a Christian household so I was surrounded by the Christian community growing up. My belief in Christ was not tested till I turned 12 when my mother unfortunately finished her battle and passed due to cholangiocarcinoma, which is a rare form of cancer. I was fuming with anger, frustration, and confusion. My mind started racing with thoughts like how I would never be able to show my mother the appreciation she deserved for raising me and how she was not going to be able to see her son navigate the journey of life. For years after that I was angry and resentful towards God and decided to explore what the world had to offer to fill this void in my life. I felt like there was a part of me that was never going to be there again. I tried to “fill” this void with friends, food, anime, music, sports, games, and anything else that brought instant gratification. None of these solutions satisfied me, so I decided to turn to the Lord. Once I let go of my resentment towards God and stopped rationalizing God’s plan to take my mother away, I felt the overwhelming love of the Lord come over me. I realized that it is all about faith over certainty. I am never going to know why an unfortunate event happened. I’ll tell you what I do know though. I know that my mother lived her life never wavering from her faith. I know that I wake up every day by the grace of God. I know that God works for those who love him. I know that God works through the trials and tribulations of our lives. Now I can’t help but let the love of the Lord overflow from me because I am loved by an infinite source. I am my mother’s legacy through the love I spread to others.
P.S. Psalms 51:10-12 and Romans 8:28 are verses that have given me comfort my whole life.
I grew up in a Christian household so I was surrounded by the Christian community growing up. My belief in Christ was not tested till I turned 12 when my mother unfortunately finished her battle and passed due to cholangiocarcinoma, which is a rare form of cancer. I was fuming with anger, frustration, and confusion. My mind started racing with thoughts like how I would never be able to show my mother the appreciation she deserved for raising me and how she was not going to be able to see her son navigate the journey of life. For years after that I was angry and resentful towards God and decided to explore what the world had to offer to fill this void in my life. I felt like there was a part of me that was never going to be there again. I tried to “fill” this void with friends, food, anime, music, sports, games, and anything else that brought instant gratification. None of these solutions satisfied me, so I decided to turn to the Lord. Once I let go of my resentment towards God and stopped rationalizing God’s plan to take my mother away, I felt the overwhelming love of the Lord come over me. I realized that it is all about faith over certainty. I am never going to know why an unfortunate event happened. I’ll tell you what I do know though. I know that my mother lived her life never wavering from her faith. I know that I wake up every day by the grace of God. I know that God works for those who love him. I know that God works through the trials and tribulations of our lives. Now I can’t help but let the love of the Lord overflow from me because I am loved by an infinite source. I am my mother’s legacy through the love I spread to others.
P.S. Psalms 51:10-12 and Romans 8:28 are verses that have given me comfort my whole life.
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